No Use For A Name

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"Not Your Savior"

Unlucky seventeen, already handed plans for the future
Glamour obsessed, told how to dress, and shown how to think
And I don't have a job, but I can show you how to be a slob
So many days, wasted and glazed
Sometimes I laugh aloud as I think about,
You asking me "Please can you help?"
Can't help my self

I'm not your savior, I'm not who you want me to be
A cowardly mistake I've made so many times before, refusing to break
Cut my losses ties them with you, like a good boy I'll pretend
And promise not to do it again

Do you remember when, life was so simple and permanent?
Everyone's changed, "Everyone's cool", Everyone sucks
But I can't seem to complain, Exciting and new is just not there
You're getting scared

I'm not your savior, never thought I was anyway
I'm a void with empty promises that backs out late
Never said I'd change, taking back the words that we spoke
Like a fuel tank running dry, you'll believe it when I choke

"Let Me Down"

She's never alone, because she's scared of what she might say to herself
Always drinking in the backroom of the bar where everyone turns in
A half-hearted grin
She won't be afraid as long as that prescription keeps going through
And all the happy pills make her look like cardboard cut out of someone,
I use to learn from
But on the phone, she's telling everyone,
that there was a blue sky, she left behind
And there's a place that no one knows about,
Away from integrity she writes a book in her head that nobody will read
Whatever you say, please don't talk about the time when she was young
Apparently that was a different person and so long ago it's strange to me,
there's no history
But there's a past and she's telling everyone It must be a garden,
that wouldn't grow
With roots of shame, too sensitive to blame to herself as we watch he drown,
I can't save the queen without a kingdom or a crown
Somewhere in this lonely game of sympathy there is a selfish dream
That makes me sick
Standing on the high wire while you're on the ground
To you what is dangerous is safe and sound...
You let me down

"Angela"

I didn't mean to drag under
But I was thinking about you
And how your eyes swallowed me whole
I've tried my hardest to forget it
But a broken heart is murder for the soul

How does it feel to be
One of the beautiful people?
Everytime that I leave it's like goodbye...Forever

Angela don't hate me
No matter what they say
I'll always love you
Don't believe the authorities
Angela believe in me

Remember when we danced together
And I promised you the world?
Well, I'll have to take that back
Because my whole life has been capsized
In a minute all the colors turned to black

My heart was killing me
And no one could hear her scream at all
Let's runaway, if only for a day...I'm guilty

Angela I'm sorry I've failed you again
And this time it's for good
Don't believe your family
I'm in hell, and you're leaving me

Angela I'm sorry
Angela believe in me.

"Black Box"

Up here sedated in my seat,
Can't wait until i can see my feet
And run away from stupid things i've said
I'll be here a few days from now,
We'll talk about it when i come down
If we make it this time, I'll clean the stain i've bled

Our worlds collide in new beginnings
It's an emergency permission to bail out
So when the heart crash lands,
What memories will survive?
I thank my black box that i'm alive

I feel unlucky today, can't wash the panic off my face
Didn't learn a thing from the last time
I'ts so selfish to be so confused,
Heart beats like rapid fire
So close to the edge but far away in mind

Two days to go until i see you
Looks like we can call the ambulance down there
My head is touching down i've learned to be afraid
I thank my black box that you're the same

"Check For A Pulse"

Fall into nowhere, fading out
Afraid of who we are, get used to it somehow

Like sad and distant memories
Time is something that we never can replace
A long and fucked up road but everyone's at home
Where it's dysfunctional and safe

You can hide inside your kingdom where the guards refuse to change
Without noticing the doubt in people these days
faces tell the story of a broken heart,
Together we fall apart

Is anyone alive in here?
Acceptance has become a common state of mind,
We love stupidity, it doesn't hurt as much
It's worse to feel than be out of touch

This is failure through conforming
Paranoia is trend as life hangs in the balance of the weak-minded
Free prescription of placebo for us all
We only stand when it's safe to fall

"Divine Let Down"

It's funny how blind faith often is used
Like a net to fall on in desperate times
Like a crutch for regret as a last resort

I won't let emotions take me
And rely on this fence that's fallen on my head

Guilt is an entity of its own fall from grace
And self-worth is their reminder
To feel out of place in your own home

Another excuse to divide us and keep the siege at bay
As long as thoughts are suppressed we'll think the same

"For Fiona"

I can't even think of words to match the way I'm feeling
I don't even think a book could say enough for you
I can only try my best, to put it in a song I guess
You try to speak, I know you tell the truth

If I could freeze our small amount of time together
Then we could make believe this world would never end (make believe this world would never end)
Unfortunately truth is cold
So you stay young while I get old
But always know, I'm your best friend

Nothing is the same
Everything is a better change
Sometimes I see silence in your eyes
Let it all crash down
When it ends it begins with you
I'm gonna learn every time you do

And I'm as scared as anybody who has done this
I wouldn't give it up for nothing free
You took my life, turned it around
And put my feet back on the ground
I owe you, eternally

Nothing is the same
Everything is a better change
Sometimes I see silence in your eyes
Let it all crash down
When it ends it begins with you
I'm gonna learn every time you do

I'm always
I'm always
I'm always here

I'm always
I'm always
I'm always here

Nothing is the same
Everything is a better change
Sometimes I see silence in your eyes
Let it all crash down
When it ends it begins with you
I'm gonna learn every time you do

"There Will Be Revenge"

Staring out the window she sees glimpses of last night
And everyone is silent but speaking through their eyes
Walking to the bus stop where the court of judges wait
To sentence her to live her life
Like she should always be ashamed
Been around so many times it wears out what you are
Accepting sarcasm and false sincerity
As words that people mean

Rejection redefined by giving up just what they're after
Someone would tell you
If they could speak above all this laughter
Think you would learn somehow the time just isn't now

Got a reputation now and no one's holding back
Wearing scars on your sleeve, so exposed to their attack
All her friends have pulled the plug on respect and reserve
Behind her back they prey on weakness
It's not what you deserve
Shot down, humiliated, pummeled by their words
Devoted you lay down with misplaced loyalty
Its misery you seek

No longer called by name when everybody's got your number
When dignity is gone
That's when depression drags you under
To depths you didn't know beneath and under
No longer called by name when everybody's got your number
When dignity is gone
That's when depression drags you under
To depths you didn't know beneath the undertow

"Part Two"

... I hope that I can seem flawless to you
And always take away the pain that you'll go through
My impression is not always what it seems
You're more of a reflection of what I used to be
...So why do I feel hollow when I look at your photograph?
You take down my fortress and kill me with a smile
Please hold that thought a while
And I'll try to put you on this path
I hope you find the road I couldn't see

You won't be by yourself
I'll live for your problems and think of you when I'm gone
Don't worry now it won't be long

Once I was you I thought the world was safe
A new perspective; everybody is insane
Protecting you is a paranoid excuse
I know that you'll do better than I could ever do

... And thoughts of self-destruction
Are now all buried in the past
You take down my barricade and melt away my heart
If loving hurts so much I want this pain to always last
I hope you pass the test that I have failed

You won't be by yourself
I'll live for your problems and think of you when I'm gone
Don't worry now it won't be long

I apologize to you for the words not spoken yet
Don't want you to look back and live in regret
Some day you'll ask me why I was away...

"Bullets"

Alone on stage without song
so where is jesus now and where do I belong
What is faith if there is no proof?
The answer is the same but not for anyone, the question lingers on

So out of desperation
Humans do their worst the find out what that is
A mystery known to many as the divine... it's their dime

If What they wrote is what he said, to equally forgive,
We read the whole thing wrong
And guidance should be used like a tool
When it gets handed down
It tends to get so damn confusing for a fool

And every word they preach is only opinion
That's why our love divides itself into a thousand pieces
Like bullets shot in vain, without sight

"Apparition"

I'm sick of everything, I can't get out of bed
Just lay here, someone pull me out
I'm tired of these thoughts, the world moves outside
Feel like a ghost, rejected by the living

Everybody is so impressed with the things the say
I take a look at what a joke it is and then lock myself away

Come on ego you fool, I see your apparition in the doorway
Beckoning me, promising to be here
When the planet lets me down, you'll still be around

Unconscious and awake, miscounting all the sheep
Too late for a peaceful night of sleep
A nightmare comes and goes, I can't remember it
It's sinking, the holes are filling my ship

Everybody is laughing at the man out on the blow
I'm learning now that nothing in common
Is better than finding out

Come on ego you fool, I see your apparition in the doorway
Beckoning me, promising to be here
When the planet lets me down, you'll still be around

I'm sick of everything,
I can't get out of bed just lay here like I'm dead

"It's Tragic"

Tragedy pulls us together but anything tears us apart
Trying hard to stay complacent but all the systems fail
And fear denies the truth that's in your heart

Forgetting lessons I have learned
My mouth is shut the table turned
No one giving time is winning again

I can't shift the blame forever
Some is your and some is mine
Sick of searching for a solution we'll always disagree
If the other half is too afraid to fight

I'm losing the will to believe
They're marching as if they were free
How could millions be so stupid??
And it's tragic everywhere I go
This country is not what you know
No one giving, fear is winning again

Strength beyond our souls (not enough to save us)
Way beyond control (we are all defenseless)

"Slowly Fading Fast"

Everyday is passing quickly like a bullet train
And time is not impressed with your complaints
Try moving faster just to get ahead of everyone
your misconceived beliefs are killing you faster than anyone

It's been so long
I can't remember getting kicked around like that
If we all follow our dreams to live the easier it seems
But the truth we are slowly fading fast

Simple minds are hard to please
When denying the fact your life is not a test
You have to let it go before you get it back

I'ts been so long
I can't remember getting kicked around like that
If we all follow our dreams to live the easier it seems
But the truth we are slowly fading fast

I don't recall any time that you did it by yourself
I look at a photograph of you and everyone that you take is a fake
And if this ride is so long then i just haven't seen the proof
The picture isn't you

"Overdue"

The flowers have wilted on the sill
And words have been kept so small and still
And yet if the great opinion speaks
Then sadly we nod our heads and agree
Barely a mention of your name
On deaf ears a distant whisper
Whatever, no one gets it

It's already overdue you will not be heard by many now
But I'll always be amazed by every sound your ever made

While building a tolerance to them
You made sorrow sound like a good friend
The well where the poison pen was drawn
The same place you trusted then but was gone
Enemies battled in your mind
Until all the blood shed leaked down
Dried up and rusted the fight

It's already overdue you will not be heard by many now
But I'll always be amazed by every sound you ever made
And since I did not know you, I can only say but a few words
Too bad they won't hear your song that I've been singing all alone

"Killing Time"

Not Knowing what he had got into, only following the sheep
The message sent for his deployment at only twenty-three
Promised to be there for a short time
His mother looks at photos
Passed down from a family tradition;
Her head lies on her lap...

I'll never be sure exactly what it means
To serve and protect us from "enemies"
They make sure we're scared
To justify this ugly, bloody mess
It's less than your pride, it's suicide at best

The waiting fills her with delusion and memories gone by
"How could I give life to my baby and then let him go die?"
But with this joke administration where no one is exempt
It's not your fault and never will be.
Don't hold love in contempt...

I feel like I'm lost, drowning out at sea
Surrounded by space with no regard for sympathy
She sees the parade of victory and war that wasn't won
"I'm not coming home." "He's my only son."

If an angel earns its wings every time somebody dies
Then todays the angels black out the blue sky

"I Want To Be Wrong"

Let me introduce myself, my name is no concern
The room is filled with superficial voices
As the smoke clears I can see one hundred little lies
Racing to the finish for a consolation prize

I want to be wrong
I wish that I was uncertain just like yesterday
This is not who I am, been planning my escape
So long now that my map looks like a maze

Always on the dark side of a pessimistic moon
Or burning in the sun of what they're saying
If you have the foresight can you read between the lines?
Finger two and four inviting fingers one and five

To be in this song, it's nothing I can shut off
But I think it's my place
To let you know I know that all your plans are fake
And what you give me I could never take

Are you confusing me with someone else you hardly even know?
I'm sitting here observing and more often I am learning
That you are an artist and this is your show... so sing it

I want to be wrong but what did i really think
That this could become real?
Now writing in cliches to learn from my mistakes
But how much of you could anyone take?

"Biggest Lie"

"Ladies and gentleman we interrupt or program of dance music to bring you a special bulletin from the incontinental news."

The writing's on the wall, but no one cares at all
To convey the message that we wrote ourselves
Destroy the walls we mend and burn the candle at both ends

(I really think we are)
Becoming more mindless of the heart
(Becoming everything we hate)
Building our castles for the future
(A Trojan horse is at the gate)
Built by the enemy that we made

It's false sincerity, we hear celebrities
"Buy a hybrid if you can" with ten years of your food stamps
Caught myself listening to sheltered excuses for human beings

(So it becomes elite)
They separate then what have we got?
(Nothing in common with their wealth)
One clip can change public opinion
(One sin can send you straight to hell)
Learned how to lie and not get caught
More piss in the melting pot

Shut out majority with riches
(Their words become more valuable)
Then the voice of a million starving children
(That they have a million ways to solve)
Left freedom bleeding on the roadside,
We believe the biggest lie

"Sleeping Between Trucks"

When you wait for someone to come trough
I'm sorry to inform you of the news
On your own, you'll stand in line and wait
To let them pick your poison and then decide your fate

Standing on lines that you never want to cross
Better listen to the boss
I know you're lonely too
I'm sleeping between trucks thinking of you

Overwhelmed? What do we really know?
We've never had to live out on the road
In the next five years I'm going to guess
The less we see the beauty, the more we see this mess

In your room you see a painting on the wall
But you don't see me at all
I know you're lonely too
I'm sleeping between trucks thinking of you

"Yours To Destroy"

Suddenly I see myself returning
To the scene where I was ridden of this crime
Looking at the outline of the chalk drawn on the street
I left so much behind here that the silhouette was me

I never thought that we were miserable
But how can two be only in it for themselves?
There is nothing left to say, I've swallowed my tongue anyway

Driving out into another state, I can see the road behind me
Falling back into the same mistake, so hard to avoid
Never will the smallest voice again be silent, yours to destroy

Panic followed blindly by depression
When the roads become the buildings in your mind
Moving up the elevator to floor sixty-three
A metaphor? Yes that is right I still cannot be free

On the roof I start to realize
I may not have a hope at least I have this view
Apologies for what's been said, half of which was in my head

And if I have to follow you, you will not rip this heart of mine in two
You cannot break this chain
But you can build a wall to shut me out if you so choose
I know that I have come and gone
But I can't keep pulling myself away
A noose around my neck
I walk around the city as the night becomes the day
And if you come around I may just not be found

"Domino"

Blinding me it seems you cannot help out with the situation
It always has to be somebody's fault but never yours
Taking what I said and making things up that did not exist before
Every time we say hello, it's like meeting a total stranger
And when we're on our own you know there's not much left to say
Just wait for everyone to nod their head then you nod yours
What difference will that make?

Falling backwards like a domino to a place where you cannot hide
You keep asking yourself is this real or really just a lie?

Don't you love yourself enough to kick them when they're in a corner?
I really have to go, when I get back will you be gone?
Keeping your shape hidden with your triangle intact,
I turn around but I can see behind my back

Falling backwards like a domino to a place where you cannot hide
You keep asking yourself is this real or really just a lie?

Lie to yourself with one hand on the switch
One to open doors that lock from outside
I'm not here to beg
You'll have to learn to swallow your pride... why?

To a place where you cannot hide
You keep asking yourself is this real or really all a lie?
You keep asking yourself is this real or really just a lie?

"The Feel Good Song Of The Year"

I never thought the day would come when I
Would be the poison in the pen I use to write
You said you were alone in somewhat of a nervous tone
I guess it was the blank look on your face that was easy to replace

So then I went and drank myself into an idiot all through the night
Recounting all my paranoid and selfish thoughts but I was right

I made a space for you inside my soul
And let my feelings kill the part that I control
So part of you was me, neglectful maybe cold it seemed
Despite having the wounds we both imbibe, the scars are
Somewhere we can't hide

I then stayed up for two more years just thinking of the sacrifice you made
Indifferent to the reason so apparent in the pain
I polished off another drink and taught myself to numb and drift away
For one more night so I could justify the day

So now I entertain the thought of going on all alone
But you are all the life I've ever known

I swear one day I'll get it back something that is already dead and gone
Again i see the trumpet player looking for his song
Don't worry I won't follow you, that part of me is learning to let got
What was a space is like a cancer in my soul

"The Trumpet Player"

Always in the way, I think I've had enough of this
Why is everyone so cold and lonely?
Here I go again, I'll try releting to the selfishly absurd

Take me for a ride and leave me somewhere I can live
Without feeling everybody's sorrow
I want to feel the numbness that surrounds most of our hearts
To feel like I am normal while ripping lives apart

Somewhere on the way to degradation
I met a man who put me in my place
He said,"You will not see me
You'll know the truth when you hear this trumpet play"

Doctor can you give me something for my state of mind?
If we're all on the same pill it's alright
'Sorry son you'll have to walk this bridge without a crutch
We're out of medication, the world is out of love"

Just then I heard something from the distance
The trumpet player sitting on the hill
He said "I really do not have an answer now"
Then vanished standing still

In the face on everyone I saw a little madness
And decided not to be part of that scene
The only way it seemed

Always on the wrong side of affection
We step on heads to get mere than we need
Never understanding the afterglow
The reflection of our greed

"This Ain't No Way To Live"

Everything I've tried has been worthless
And I don want to die in search of something better
Dropped the ball and threw the towel in
Walked the fence and failed the challenge

This aint no way to live
This aint no way to live

This is not the way things are supposed to be I noticed
Maybe its just me but it really seems its hopeless
Things are not the way I planned them
Avoid disasters, but they still happen
Dropped the ball and threw the towel in
Failed the challenge

This aint no way to live
This aint no way to live

I dont know where things went wrong
Maybe i'll move to North Korea
Run away and never see again

This aint no way to live (Dont know where things went)
This aint no way to live (Dont know where things went wrong)

"Ontario"

Dim light, saw you sleeping
The door is open waiting to be closed
And it's warm in this little room
But December is so cold
Waking to a nightmare
Passing out and hoping for a dream
That will bring back his memory

And everything you wanted was so close to you that night
I don't know how you could have dealt with this
But nothing could prepare you for that risk

Reliving every minute
Makes the moment seem further away
Unimaginable for me
The room with the blue paint
No words can repair this
So why do people still talk about faith
When it's proven to be nothing great

Now everyday reminds you of what could and should have been
I cannot find a last line to this song
Oh Yeah! Please remember
It must go on...

"Pacific Standard Time"

Sleep is also known as i'm awake
Addicted to the easy life that everybody hates
I wonder should i call you or just stare in space again
There's always a beginning on your end

Somebody get me off this lonely sad parade
The differences a hundred miles but a couple months away
I'm saying hello just to say goodbye

You must be tired of waiting
Or making plans to go
Somewhere between an empty feeling and the worst one that you know
But i am saving every photograph of you
So every lie i live i see the truth

Cold december just got on the board
And every noise reminds me of the suitcase by the door
I wonder should i wake you up, i watch tv instead
These idiots are making me forget

How much you always forgive everything i do
The time and space begin of certain if i'm coming back to you
I'm saying this to let you know i try

You must be tired of waiting
Or making plans to go
Somewhere between an empty feeling and the worst one that you know
But i am saving every photograph of you
So every lie i live i see the truth

Somebody get me off this lonely sad parade
The differences a hundred miles but a couple months away
I'm saying hello just to say goodbye

"The Dregs Of Sobriety"

I hope someday that we can sit and talk above the surface
For now I'm drowning in a sea of you
The irony of alcohol and this conversation piece
Is exactly what we need to keep us from the truth

So let me sit here all alone and contemplate the meaning
Of a situation made up in your mind
You're so damn miserable and careless with your
Darkest thoughts
You act as if your clock is fooling time

Say hello to routine life and goodbye to the vacation
I haven't thought about you in two days
The more I see the in between the more I want to leave
But it keeps on closing in to the tune of selfish ways

In your ashtray is the answer to all the questions that
You had to prove
We are not going to keep moving forward in our sleep
Can you save us? Would you dare?
In a place where you refuse to care